Life FI

Almost there - 7 more weeks. Time has passed so fast. The end brings forth many unsorted business. Many pending questions.

Life for investigation.

I cannot describe the feeling. The situation. I've read versions and personal accounts of the conflict of emotions - the struggle between two places, but none that would include the major complicating factor that is mine. And mine alone to bear.

I think. And then I do not reach the end of the sentence.

The world disheartens me. The news - always something that makes me frustrated and angry. And work? - I've come to a standstill. This inertia must be overcome. Must start reading again or else I am no better than the final year. Always must strive to improve my knowledge.

My procedural skills - I've hit a dry run with IVs this past two weeks. A big-time draught. And still searching for that elusive LP.

I did not think I would have been able to make it for the weddings. So I am glad I could make it to one - though not without for sure regret that I would not be able to make it to the upcoming one. To be able to witness that moment when the eyes' lit up and the smile so effortlessly jubilant - that moment that captures it all, is a moment that will resonate within me and that will for move me as it did so recently.

So I know in less than two weeks when that happens again - I am sure my girls will cry for me when I am not there to start the ball rolling.

As the beat of the kompang continues to echo the walls of the HDB flats - I wish all friends/family who have gotten married/getting married who I have not been able to attend (invited or not!) - semoga diberkati Allah s.w.t. selalu.

In the meantime life for investigation continues. And I continue to pray for answers.